After a lot of false starts and contemplation, I believe that my biggest obstacle is inertia. I can envision the life that I'd like to lead; I know what I have to do to get there (mostly), but instead I just sit around and daydream about my future or about the things I should have done in the past, and just let the present slide through my consciousness without really paying attention. I have all kinds of plans, but most of them just stay in "some day".
But hey, I'm making some progress. When I turned 50, I reintroduced my exercise habit and have done yoga nearly every day for the last two and a half years. I built on that and began a daily meditation practice a year ago, and last August, I became a certified yoga instructor, plus I can now do ten push ups! I've also been sewing more - I've made over a hundred masks in the last year, plus a pair of shorts for Carlos, a wallet for Al and one for me, and I'm working on my first quilt. I've developed a daily journaling habit - something I've been attempting for forty years - and I've sent birthday cards to important people in my life.
So, really, when I look at it more closely, maybe my biggest obstacle is that I focus on all of the stuff I want to do, but don't value the things I have done.
I don't know. This has been tough to write. Maybe overthinking is my biggest obstacle?
